I have been busy with 4 littles and several events
so I haven't had any time to spare for my little corner of the internet.
But my little man is 3 months old today
so I thought I'd finally share his 6 week photos my sweet friend Lizz took.
I was a bit overwhelmed when Jagger joined our family.
Not only was he the fourth little person to care for, he was also not a very mellow baby.
He was fairly high maintenance, often fussy and slightly discontent.
I had a couple of days of tears and "I can't do this mother of 4 thing"
when my parents lovingly reminded me that Jagger needs more from me than
nursing, burping and changing.
Which was pretty much all the poor little guy was getting from me
while I ran all around the house putting out fires (thankfully none literal, up to this point…).
I had nothing left to give emotionally after taking care of everyone's physical needs
so all I could do was cling to Jesus and say
"I can't do this" "I am not enough" "I don't have what it takes".
Lord I need you was my theme song.
I often have to be pushed to my breaking point before I will turn to Christ in desperation.
And then I say "here! take it! I can't do it on my own!" as I thrust my life back into his hands
and he says "thank you. that's all I wanted." as he smiles and kisses my forehead.
3 months in and things are looking up.
Jagger has turned into such a sweet smiley baby.
We've figured each other out and I can anticipate his needs.
And I have a better word to describe him than "fussy" "discontent" or "high maintenance".
My little man is INTENSE.
His emotions are intense.
His eating, burping, POOPING and moving are intense.
I think that will be my favorite thing about him as his personality continues to blossom.
Whether this change is due to him getting older and acclimating to life outside the womb
or to me desperately crying out to my Savior…its still an answer to prayer. :)
Jagger Scott, you are so very loved by us all…and sometimes smothered by your sister.