I don't want to turn 30.

June 28, 2012

So I know I should try to be all cool about turning 30 and getting older
like Oprah or Ann Curry or some fellow bloggers
but the truth is, I'm not excited about it at all.
Just like I'm not excited about my scrunchy stomach skin
that doesn't want to go away after popping out baby #3.
I mean, does that EVER go away??
Nope. Cause I'm 30 now. Bam. You're welcome.
I guess I'm just sad to say goodbye to my 20's.
They were pretty good to me.
Not only did I get a college degree,
marry "the one" and have my 3 babies in my 20's (wow, that's crazy...)
but I became the woman I am - inside and out.
I finally started to like who I was and the way I looked.
Which is something I haven't gotten to enjoy like some of you
that have been beautiful since 14.
When we were kids 30 was "so old" you know?
And now I'm here.
And I'm thinking...hmmm...I thought things would be different 
by the time I reached this ripe old age...
It's hard not to compare lives to others.
As women, we all do it (one of our fatal flaws).
But I've finally gotten to the point where I've realized
there's always going to be someone who is prettier than you,
YOUNGER than you,
more fashionable, more successful, in better shape, has more money, more talent,
more wisdom, more freedom, a better house, whatever, fill in the blank.
 But like I said here no one can have or do it all.
And I can honestly say that even though I'm not
where I thought I'd be when I turned 30
I'm still happy, extremely blessed and confidant in who God has made me.
I don't have it all, that's for sure
but I do have the things that really matter in this life and I couldn't be more grateful.

{Embracin' the camera. Post pool. With no makeup.}

My little sister's guy friend was shocked when she told him
I was 11 years older than her.
"What!? She's 30!? I thought she was only like 27 or something!"
He is now my new favorite person.
And I will definitely be pullin' for him. ;)

2 comments:

emily anderson said...

freakin' A. i'm about to turn 31. barf barf barf.

SaraBethJ said...

I LOVE these photos. Were they done on Instagram? How do you post 4 together like that? Welcome to the thirties!

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