due date

August 15, 2011

Today was Jemma's due date.
Weird.
It would have been a good day to have a baby. :)
Dark & rainy.
Not missing out on anything.
And it's Monday.
Both my boys were born on Mondays.
I haven't had a lot of weird realizations except for today
and when I went to an old friend's wedding a couple of weeks ago.
Earlier this year we were talking about her big day
and I told her I was going to be HUGE at her wedding. :)
So when I went and wore this dress instead of a tent,
that was a little strange.{thanks for the dress Al}
And I still couldn't enjoy a glass of wine,
because I was pregnant...again...with a different baby.
Seriously, life is weird.
March seems like an eternity ago.
Sometimes it feels like it never happened at all.
And then I remember her tiny, still form after delivery.
I will never, ever forget that moment in my life.
But this child inside of me now brings me so much joy.
As do these precious boys.
And I know how blessed I am to not struggle with fertility.
I probably used to take it for granted,
especially having 3 out of 4 pregnancies be "surprises",
but now I know what a gift it is.
I can't tell you how much I long to feel this baby kick.
And to hear its first cry.
And to look into its face, and know, yet again,
just how sovereign my God really is.

P.S.
I changed Jettisizzle's photo in my last post.
It's a much cuter one provided by my sweet friend Lizz.
It captures him much more accurately. :)

4 comments:

Kendra said...

I am so happy for you and the path God has taken you and your family! God bless!

Jennifer said...

You look beautiful in that photo! I admire your perspective so much... I'm sure it's been hard for you but I love that you feel it, then look to the joys in life, and focus on how blessed you are. You amaze me my friend!
Much love,
Jenn

Allyson said...

oh my goodness....how could it be that day already?? that IS crazy. thinking of you and thankful for the new life God has growing in your cute little belly. so grateful we serve a God who is the ultimate redeemer and grace giver. can't wait to get together this week...seriously!!

alie13 said...

This seriously gives me so much hope and joy...I had no idea....thank you so much for sharing.

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